One of the most common comments after consulting with Vita is, “Ugh, you shook me up well, you’re right, I have to sort myself out.”
And this sentence holds 2 truths about artists:
1. A lot of us are scattered. When you have no concrete knowledge, but you want to create something, from what I know from my own experiences, it creates chaos. Because you want everything. And it all must happen right away. And you don’t know where to start. And how to connect all this with all that exists from before – family, private life, other projects and jobs. And then we fall apart. Either we never start, or we start and it falls apart or we somehow make it to the end disintegrating along the way so someone or something always gets hurt.
2. We think we have to and we can do it alone. That we must first sort it out ourselves so that we can learn or work on yourself. But herein lies the problem. Actually, two problems.
If we could do it alone, we would. Some can do it alone, but it’s a long and difficult process.
Most say that they will do it alone – but when they are faced with that huge amount of things to do and deal with – they get stuck again. Because you don’t see your own mess. You have no perception of your clutter while you’re standing in the middle of it. And sometimes there are things in that mess that you don’t even know you need, so you overlook them.
I struggled with the literal messiness my entire life. And I kept saying how I’m going to clear up the closet, tidy it up, but when I’d open it – I didn’t know what to do with it. Until I found a space organizer for it. Who has knowledge of organization and systems and who looks at my stuff differently. For each piece, she made me aware: “Do you really need a tenth quilt?” or a T-shirt from eighth grade elementary. She offered as many as 4 solutions for each piece.
The result? It’s been over a month and my closet is still tidy. The mess did not return. Because I got the knowledge and the systems from her. And there is no going back. And if it happens again – I know who I will ask to get me back on the road.
And therein lies that other problem. We think we must learn on our own first. But it’s the exact opposite. Chaos will not be solved until you know how to solve it. The project will not get started right and crystallize if you do not have the knowledge in which direction to go, in what order, what you need from all this mess and whether you need something that is not there at all (some hangers, an organizer), but is crucial for all to fall into place.
For a long time I have resisted my own mother’s advice. Because she’s my mom. Until I realized it wasn’t going to work because – I don’t know. I have no knowledge. And only if I learn, only if I let her guide me when everything is in chaos – only then will I be able to come to terms with it and have the feeling that I know what I am doing.
Don’t wait to sort yourself out. Don’t wait for things to calm down, to organize everything yourself. Because that’s like swimming through a storm, and next to you is a solid ship that will take you there in five minutes. If you swim, maybe you’ll get to the shore in a few days. And maybe you and your project will drown.
On February 7, the ship VestaLLLs sets sail. Will you board or will you continue to swim alone?